First I would like to thank everyone who has been praying for Georgie. It really has brought me comfort and hope. : )
Here is Georgie at the Oncologist today before her first chemo treatment ( sorry quality is cruddy, I took it on my BB). She was in really good spirits, actually the most peppy I have seen her all week. She was totally pimping for treats and I think she went home with about 7 in her tummy. Whatever makes her happy! Her eyesight has improved but her right eye has a lot of blood in in caused by the Lymphoma, so we are back to the Opthamologist tomorrow morning to have that looked at again.
I will continue her chemo at home for the next 3 days, then we are back again next Wednesday for another round. The plan is to do this for 12 weeks. She will go into remission ( hopefully) soon and should be back to her old self in no time. She has maintained her weight, thanks to some new things in her diet like cottage cheese and sardines, although she has lost a lot of muscle. I plan on adding flax oil, kelp and some other goodies to help her along the chemo road.
The Chief has been a dear throughout this. I asked him today if I should go back to work once Alexa is back in school to help pay for this ( it's that much!). He said no, not to worry about it. I told him I will cut back on all spending and be as thrifty as I can be, which I'm actually good at. My biggest worry is that we will pay all this money and she will only live 6 months. Well, that is my worry anyway, but I will feel guilty about it from a financial standpoint if that happens. It is so hard to put a price on someone you love. We want to do everything we can. I am not ready to say good bye to her. Is that selfish?
Today was the day Alexa and I were supposed to fly to Chicago to spend 10 days with my folks. Of course that had to be canceled. There was no way the Chief could handle all of this on his own and I could not bear to be away from her during this difficult time. So, I had to break the news to Alexa last week and she burst into tears which made me feel horrible. I told her that sometimes responsibilities in families cause you to make hard decisions. All of us were disappointed on all ends but I guess life does that to you sometimes.
So, for now I count my blessings each day for my child's health, my husband's, my own and my family's. I am enjoying every moment with my sweet Georgie and trying to be strong. I said to myself tonight after all the pets were fed, Alexa was bathed, the house was straightened up, and it was finally quiet...."Hey, I should really take care of myself too and go get a massage". Then I laughed and thought, "Hey great idea but you can't even afford it now!" So, I think I'll settle for a hot shower!